" Fighter "

" Fighter "

After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
'Cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you
Thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff
Time is up, 'cause I've had enough
You were there by my side
Always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmm hmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that
I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong

'Cause if it wasn't for all
That you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Never saw it coming
All of your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in on a good thing
Before I'd realized your game

I heard you're going 'round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin feelin' I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Guess you're wanting to hurt me
But that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over

'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now
And never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I know
Turn out to be unjust so cruel?
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth

You tried to hide your lies
Disguise yourself through
Living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me

I am a fighter
(I'm a fighter)
I ain't gonna stop
(I ain't gonna stop)
There is no turning back
I've had enough

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget
But I, I remember
Yes I remember
I'll remember

Thought I would forget
But I remember
Yes I remember
I'll remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Has anyone ever actually sat down and listened to the song " Fighter " by Christina Aguilera? From her old album Stripped? GOOD ASS SONG . I ain't gonna lie but I loved her for it when this album came out and after I heard this song. Whenever I listen to it, it's like instantly I wanna forget the bullshit and just say FUCK IT , i'm gonna do me, i'm gonna be, and i'm gonna do whatever the hell i want. Automatically, I know I don't need alot of people in my life if most of them aren't real. I don't need the people who don't have RESPECT for me the way I had for them , and I don't need people who act like they accept me but they really don't. But still, like in the song I need to THANK those people for helping me realize this. 

There are some that really really know me, like right through my skin , the whole me, inside and out, and I know they know who I can be when I'm really pushed. Like you all know, I was raised well by my Dad, but when the time comes I really am pushed to the limit. My mouth will just keep going and going and I will seriously kill you with my words, no lie. Don't take my kindness to another level where you end up not having respect for me, God made us all equal so please, you want me to respect you respect me , if we are cool with that, then I love you forever, but if not. I won't waste my time on you. 

I realized there are also some where I don't show them the real me, where I am majorly nice, but then I realize they take advantage of that which slowly makes me free the evil from within that I really don't want to happen, because I seriously can do damage. I guess looking back at Middle School, the people who realize that I have to be mean at times and literally taught me how to be mean , I could use now. But ever since I got into a fight when I was younger and embarrassed the shit out of my dad by getting a call from the cops and my dad was a cop then, I guess I promised myself I wouldn't be mean and I will keep my mouth shut. BUT SERIOUSLY I CANT KEEP THAT PROMISE ANYMORE . I cant get by the world being nice to everyone , I am going to be demanding when I need to demand things, I am going to be a bitch when I need to tell a person straight to stay in check and stay away from me if they are in a bitchy mood and wants to make me feel stupid and to back the fuck off cause I'm serious.  

I still can't get over the fact that I moved here and back to the Philippines. WHY DID I DO THAT?! SERIOUSLY WHY?!. I've experienced everything here just by moving here . HELL AND BACK . Endless nights where I would cry because . WHO IS REAL HERE WHERE YOU CAN ACTUALLY RUN TO . ONLY A GOOD FEW . But I still kept it together even though I know my worth and what I can do when I get mad. So please, please, don't push me to my limit. Both sides of my family are bitchy, demanding, in short they get what they want and they won't let anyone step on them. I admit I broke the line when I was born but now, as I'm learning more to live here in Philippines and meeting new people ( WHICH there are a few who are already on my hit list ) that I will show that I did not disapoint my family line both sides . 

Anyways. I think I'm done raging online. Anyways. The song up top means a lot to me. If you're lucky to really know the real me, you would understand why. But seriously, I love this song and I just wanted to share it with you guys and for those who haven't listened to it yet. It helps just by listening to it =)

FASTFORWARDDDDD ..

I like my outfit today. I mean it's nothing to be WOW'd really about but I am just loving my neon green cheetah print racer back.  Or maybe I'm loving my outfit because the most expensive thing out of it was my black cardigan costing PHP.300. HAHA! I love tiangges with cheap thrills =)! .

See, it's not that BOOM WOW outfit but just right for a chilly lazy day in the Philippines. And okay, fine I'm gonna admit I liked the outfit because the most expensive buy was the black cardigan :D . 

Cardigan: PHP.300
Leggings: PHP.200
Flats: PHP.200
Neon Green Cheetah Print Racer Back : PHP. 50

Hello Kitty Pin & Necklace : FREEE

Oh Sorry . Kinda hefty. Trying to Diet. HAHA.

I don't know why I had the urge to pin a Hello Kitty pin on my cardigan. I just thought it was a way for the black cardigan to have a little UMPF in it. hahah!

But yeah, I really love ukays and tiangges. You can find alot of unique things that no one else has. But please don't think that all my belongings come from there cause I swear you'd also be surprised to find things that you won't believe I own. Ha. Ha.